The world is plauged with tragedies.Be it human caused or natural causes.
Received 4 smses in the morning from 4 different gals.
Irene asked if I really wanna go club tml but she cant stay like Yin n Von.Well..me too.
Von asked if I applied for those govt jobs already anot.
Yin told me where to apply.
Yng complaint abt the tragedy and the sad atmosphere.

Intend to go out today alone one..want to go library and chill out.
But looking at the drizzly weather today,it's better to stay home huh?

Jason got his Hyatt DnD tonight.At..I forgot which club.Izzit Dbl O or Devils?
So nice!But the thought of him dancing the night away SUCKS big time.
Come on lo..when guys dance,they dont hang ard the same sex.
And not that my boo is one that would quietly sit down at a couch all night long n drink green tea ah.
So damn cross that that stupid big hotel had DnD at club one.
I told him I would be so damn cross n jealous if any gals touch him n would castrate him if he touches any gals.
Lol.
But machiam I will know lidat.
Nvm~I will do the same when I go tml night.;p
Machiam I can bear myself to the dance floor.Plus I hate lousy guys who pick up gals in the clubs and wanna dirty dance there.
It's is deliberate 'eat free tou fu' lo.
Pui!
Despise such guys~

Speaking of which..our fav topic now is 'infidelity'.

Actually really cant trust guys lo.Esp guys from this century.
Yng~Our daddies may be a total wood block but we can trust them to be the most faithful males ard in the globe.
It is true that guys will cheat behind u,just that u choose to know or not to.
Well...next time..if I ever face that in my marriage...Just dun ever lemme discover or I will never let u have the pride of a male again.
I am not those that would suffer abuse or injustice silently.I would rather leave n cry on my own than to pretend everything is fine.
Hmph.
But I will make sure u pay ur price.

But again..we cant say it's entirely the guys' fault.Coz it takes both hands to clap.
There will always be victims and culprits.
Just hope that the victims will never be hurt too deeply.

Hehz.What am I talking abt.

I had insomnia last night.=(
Think I fell asleep at ard 4am,woken up by the noises at 5 plus.Fell back to sleep only at 6 plus plus.Woke at 10 plus.
Stupid latte freeze!!!
Must set a damn mental note to myself that i cant drink such caffeine drinks at night.
But it doesnt work when I am burning mid night oil to study that time.;p

Sigh....
Yng..when is my table coming?

Have u guys notice it is only 3 days more to 2005.
If by 2005,I will start all the job hunting again with Von maybe. =/
Cant stand the idling ard.Total waste of life n scalawag I am!

I have not given up NIE,but the wait is too long.
Maybe take up jobs den.But I wont do all those sai kang again!

Sigh...Couldnt sigh enough.
I miss studying alot.
Not exactly studying.But it is that kinda feeling.
Maybe it's like everything is plan for you and you dun have to worry abt the next step.

Now..it's like threading in water.
Feel so unsafe,even if u have got a job.

Like Jason says..when can we ever shut up all these and get married n live happily ever after.

I smile.

But...is there really such thing as living happily ever after.
Ha-ha.

Yin told us got a friend(we know her indirectly) got married in M'ysia and even is pregnant now!
She just graduated with us!
Our jaws dropped. = 0

My god...I cant imagined getting married at 20-21!I havent even live to be independent and stop being a baby gal of my parents.Married?Pregnant?Shudders!

I dun even wanna think abt it till I am like 24.

I was thinking...would there ever come a day that Jason would propose to me?Would we get engaged first?OR would we just get married immediatly?
But...no matter how...it is something that is kinda far from now.

That I sigh...

It is not that I would like it to happen now.
Oh yes,I would love to imagine that happening but...nowadays...nothing is secure,man.

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I hate starting all over again,but it beats than twirling in no ends.

Argh~~~
Go bath la n do all the housework.Be maria,siti or fatimah~
Tml club anot...whatever la~
It's good to visit the night scene for a change but really...I prefer chilling out in bars den to club the night away.
Clubbing too much is unhealthy and the smoke and drunkards there are unhealthy enough.
Let alone stupid pigs n piggies.Flirting away.
I swear I would clobber any guys that night who tries to be funny with my gals.

I miss...Jason.
Sometimes I hate to feel those kinda detachment.When he is having his own life,I feel so detached and insecure.And when I'm used to such feelings,it will take sometime to warm up again when I am with him.

Yng..like u..we are both a lil too dependent.
But what do they want?
Independent and having our own life too?That it seems that this is no longer like a relationship?
Isnt relationship abt 2 of us?

But being dependent makes us feel so inferior and useless,that self confidence erodes with time.

w-h-a-tever la~
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50 tinks 2 do when u r in a relationship... ^_^
Message:

1. Watch the sunset together.(-_-)
2. Whisper to each other.(check)
3. Cook for each other.(check)
4. Walk in the rain.(with umbrella?Check)
5. Hold hands(Check)
6. Buy gifts for each other.(check)
7. Roses.(once or twice...check>)
8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfumeand wear it every time you're together.(not really-_-)

9. Go for a long walk down the beach atmidnight.(um.....dun really think so)
10. Write poetry for each other.(-_-)
11. Hugs are the universal medicine.(check)
12. Say I love you, only when you mean it andmake sure they know you mean it.(check)
13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetryetc.(I check that myself!!)

14. Tell her that she's the only girl you everwant. Don't lie!(u shld)

15. Spend every second possible together.(-_-)
16. Look into each other's eyes.(check)
17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into hereyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.(wha....like comics)
18. When in public, only flirt with each other.(of coz..though my eyes always wander to both beauties n hunks)
19. Put love notes in their pockets when theyaren't looking.(huh uh!)
20. Buy her a ring.*(check)

21. Sing to each other.(forever~one sided..haha)
22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.(check)
23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for twodeal.(?)
24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and theTramp?)(we never eat lidat though it is funny!)
25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes,kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.(wow...thats something new)
26. Dance together.(check)
27. I love the way a girl looksright after she's fallen asleep with her head inmylap.(well..check)
28. Do cute things like write I love you in anote so that they have to look in a mirror toreadit.(ha ha...dun make me laugh...)
29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes.(forget it..it never happen)
30. Even if you are really busy doingsomething,go out of your way to call and say I love you.(u heard that?)

31. Call from your vacation spot to tell themyouwere thinking about them.(check?)
32. Remember your dreams and tell her aboutthem.(check)
34. Tell each other your most sacredsecrets/fears.(check)
35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.(oh..he is a gd boy to my parents!!)
36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.(check..)
37. Hang out with his/her friends.(nope~)
38. Go to church/pray/worship together. (temples is just not the same!!>_<)
39.Takeher to see a romantic movie and remember theparts she liked.(check)
40. Learn from each other anddon't make the same mistake twice.(crossed fingers)

41. Describe the joy you feel just to be withhim/her.(cant descirbe)
42. Make sacrifices for each other.(check)
43. Really love each other, or don't staytogether.(check)
44. Let there never be a second during anygivenday that you aren't thinking about them, andmakesure they know it.(huh....well..u shld know!)

45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.(welll...)
46. Learn to say sweet things inforeign languages.(check)
47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.(check)
48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.(yea RIGHT!)
49. Stand up for them when someonetalks trash.(i believe u will although no one will do that to me...well...i hope not)
50. Never forget the kiss goodnightand always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."(u heard that~)